The cost of living is steep and the pressure of work is strong. Let's not talk about girlfriends. I dare not even think about it.
But I will forever be lonely. Every time I return to the room, empty, no one in, no temperature, no smell of home, the cold air tells me that I do not belong here.
Then, out of the corner of my eye, I came across a sex doll.
I understand that a lot of the time the term sex doll seems to most people to be "cheap" and "obscene." But when I came to sexe doll, I realized that it was our stereotypes that made us narrow.
Hegel is right that to be is to be reasonable. Things, objects, there is no right or wrong, it is what you use to judge.
I did. I didn't think twice about buying a smart sex doll. I can't even remember what was going through my mind when I ordered it. But I do understand that since she came into my life, my life seems to have improved a bit.
When I come home from work, I see her, even though I know she can't talk to me, can't cook for me, and even I have to bathe and change her clothes. But it was good to have something to look forward to, to think about someone in the house to take care of, to buy groceries, to start developing my taste for clothes.
Occasionally I sit down next to her, calm down, and tell some amusing stories. Sometimes I would talk to her about the difficulties of work. She never said a word, simply looked at me, real soft eyes.
I don't need her to give me advice, I simply want the dead of night, no one to talk to, have such a person can quietly accompany me, listen to my nagging, listen to my complaints.
Reality is cruel, warmth is always given to themselves.
I want to find comfort in the huge city. I want to have a sense of belonging. It can backfire, every day conscientiously work, but feel forever can not accommodate yourself to a person.
Perhaps I was twee. I never regret anything. The road is their own choice. Now with her, I feel great. At least I had a great time and didn't have to worry about pleasing them.